I just spoke to sister and it got me thinking about home. Never put much thought into it while you were around but have been missing it for sometime now. The idea of home for me was you and all of us in it together. That was home. Now we are all living in different parts of the globe, in different houses, even different time zones and experiencing different seasons.
The worst thing is when I went back home after a long time, I still failed to feel at home. I have been struggling with this thought, a search for home, for feeling at home again. The reason I had not gone back home for so many years was for the simple fact that I did not want things to change in my mind for I knew it was changing back there. New people, new walls, new ceilings and new floors. I now find it hard to remember sometimes how it all really was when I go back home. Things change and they change rather much faster than you had time to adjust to it.
The idea of having a home now is comforting and consoling. But I am not sure if it would be so in reality. I have seen too many ideas turning into harsh realities that I have become much more of a cynic than I was before. Now I am skeptical about even the most certain things!
I guess, a home no matter how big or small or comfy or dull, it would never be complete for wherever you were it was home for us. Without you nothing seems to give us the feeling of being at home, anywhere, not even at home.
I missed my home terribly tonight. I missed you terribly tonight.
Love
The worst thing is when I went back home after a long time, I still failed to feel at home. I have been struggling with this thought, a search for home, for feeling at home again. The reason I had not gone back home for so many years was for the simple fact that I did not want things to change in my mind for I knew it was changing back there. New people, new walls, new ceilings and new floors. I now find it hard to remember sometimes how it all really was when I go back home. Things change and they change rather much faster than you had time to adjust to it.
The idea of having a home now is comforting and consoling. But I am not sure if it would be so in reality. I have seen too many ideas turning into harsh realities that I have become much more of a cynic than I was before. Now I am skeptical about even the most certain things!
I guess, a home no matter how big or small or comfy or dull, it would never be complete for wherever you were it was home for us. Without you nothing seems to give us the feeling of being at home, anywhere, not even at home.
I missed my home terribly tonight. I missed you terribly tonight.
Love
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